future, is such a big word.

once a friend asked me,
why do i want to go all the way to disney for my internship, what do i expect to get in the end, what have i learnt all this while.
why did i go, mainly for the fun of it. who would disagree with me about this? if disney does not associate with the word fun, i dont know what will. for the experience, honestly, how many people have the chance to put Walt Disney World Resort under their previous employer column in their resume. and maybe for the sake of getting out of my comfort zone, and venturing out into the big world on my own, albeit for just 5months.
what do i expect to get? not money of course, for sure, those moolahs have been spent on goods with the tag "pink, abercrombie and yada yada". to get more exposure to the real world, not one that is sheltered. to meet more people, to see more stuffs and to see if i can be independent, for once.
what have i learnt? so much that it would take me days and months to pen it down. for all i know, i learnt a lot more about life.

disney have been a dream, after all, its the year of a million dreams. my dreams may not have come true, but for sure, it's the sweetest dream that i ever had. i've said my goodbyes to my wonderland, it's time to get back to the reality.
when my great american adventure has ended, i would have to get back to where i came from and continue with what i've left behind.
it's time to start familiarising with that piano of mine, time to go back to school and meet up with the teachers and to start preparing for my application to university.

yes, i would like to go to a uni. just like any one of you.
if you ask me if i can get into a local uni. i cant give you a definite answer. yes, i can apply to a uni and i definitely will. but whether or not i can get in, that has to depend on whether or not the uni is accepting me. all i know is, i would go apply and then we'll wait for a response from the school.
i cant right now tell you in the face that i can get into a uni. i dont want to give anybody any chance to say "but the other time you said that ..." in the future. i dont want to say things that i'm not certain of.
but i am certain about one thing. i want to get in. not because you want me to. not because others are in uni and so should i. but simply because i, myself, want to.
let us just wait and see, what it will turn out to be, in the near future.

future, is still a very big word.